memoirs of a vekla

wupeeee!!!!!

Mon, 17 Dec 2007 11:26:55 GMT

isang tulog nalang....aapak na akong muli sa lupa ng pilipinas!!!!!!!!!!!

Fri, 28 Sep 2007 02:55:28 GMT

work has been using up most of my energy....... so every single day, i find myself falling asleep on the sofa, immediately after having a cup of coffee, tea, or hot chocolate.

and somewhat, i cannot say that i'm tired but happy... i'm not so happy. i do not wish for recognition fo rmy efforts to improve stuff in this lab. all i ask is that my efforts be appreciated once in a while and that i won't be blamed for things that aren't even my responsibility...

i just want to go back to school. unlike others who are itching to get out of school and work, i actually dreaded my graduation day. it would mean leaving a very secure yet unpredictable world. now i'm in a place wherein i really do not know where i'm going. should i go against the flow or just let it take me wherever it wishes to?

i'm just too tired.... thank god it's friday

i wonder if people still read lj's...

Sun, 20 May 2007 04:17:15 GMT

it has been a long, long time--about six months--since my last update...

has my life been so uneventful that i cannot bring myself to update my journal? no

has it been so busy that i have no time to sit in front of a computer and type? no

has it been going so fast that i have no time to let everyhitng that's going on sink in? maybe

am i just too lazy to update? YES!!!

everyday, i experience a lot of new things, go through the old things, get myself into a mix of highs and lows... to me it's all so exciting...

but however exciting things might get, a part of me will always say: wouldn't it be great if my family and friends are with me when these things happen?

i miss the philippines...

V***Y

Wed, 29 Nov 2006 10:26:59 GMT

salamat sa youtube... nakakita ako ng clip ng recent gig nila...

humaba na ulit buhok niya. pero dahil ang blurry ng video, wala na akong ibang ma-comment. syempre alam ko naman nang pogi siya (kahit di ko nakita ng matino ang fezh).

zah! buti ka pa, nakita mo siya. huhuhuhu... dito wala talagang prospect! kaiyak! meron pala, neighbor ko... kaso lang HIGH SCHOOL LANG SIYA! this is a very boring place to be...

JEERY YAN!!!! (FAN-MODE)

Wed, 29 Nov 2006 07:11:22 GMT

it was worth it... cutting work (and thus my pay) short yesterday... staying in the freezing cold waiting area for belts 31 to 34...

made small talk with a couple of photographers and with a really tall (but not so cute) security guy.

tested and re-tested the camera setting, making sure it was the best for the occasion.

the subject walked in a slow, ceremonial (almost like a wedding march) manner. smiled at everyone (yes, me included!), waved every now and then. i was in awe, stunned (could not find a better word to describe myself).

then i realized... shit! i had a camera. he was so close you could see how smooth his skin was, how deep his dimple was, how damaged his hair was.

hanakanangletche! ampogi! closest encounter ito, just an arm's length away. bilang isang fan, i LOVE SINGAPORE! it's a fan-girl heaven!

as for the non-fan girl aspects of me, i'm not so sure they love singapore...

ho hummm

Fri, 22 Sep 2006 03:36:54 GMT

please naman, kontakin na ninyo ako...

ayaw niyo ba ng magaling at magandang tao sa teams ninyo?!?!??!!

aba, aba, aba... please po...

i really need to work.

Fri, 15 Sep 2006 10:11:50 GMT

it seems i surprised a few people today...

kumain ako, si zah, ate milay at kuya bo sa world topps kanina. at ang paraan para makabalik kami ng UP ay mag-taxi...

tapos may dumaang taxi... kaso lang may sakay.

sa kabaliwan ko, sumigaw ako ng: BABA!

syempre, nagulat sina ate milay at kuya bo. si zah rin ata, nagulat.

come to think of it, pati ako nagulat sa ginawa ko... oh well...

i was hoping to catch a glimpse of you today before i leave. probably strike up a simple conversation: "you remeber me? so, when's your next gig?" or "i think we were too drunk to remember everything we did the other night. were we able to say that you guys were really good?"... something like that (in tagalog, of course)

but if it was not meant for such a thing to happen, even if i stay there all day and all night, it won't happen.

26 hours until take-off...

all my posts seem to be incoherent

Thu, 14 Sep 2006 10:10:29 GMT

so i might as well continue with this not so good trend. i am not really in the mood to change this trend...

i shall say goodbye to a world i have known so well and enjoyed so much in about 50 hours. although i am excited, i have to admit that i am also scared.

i shall say goodbye to people i have loved my entire life and to people i have shared my life with in about 50 hours. i will definitely miss them (and i hope they miss me too...) but i know that the distance shall not be an hindrance for me to continue sharing my life with them. it won't be long before i see you, my family and my friends, again.

i shall say goodbye to a habit that has kept me sane the past few years in about 50 hours. this habit helped build friendships, started new ones, gave me an excuse to go to a certain parking lot and wait for someone to pass by, made time pass slowly allowing me to breathe in every detail, every sound, every emotion... although it is a bad habit, i have to admit, the good effect surpass the bad ones.

i shall say goodbye to a place i have known so well, my second home, in about 50 hours. the grounds in this place has witnessed moments of joy, depression, excitement, fear, desperation, laughter, silence, every imaginable emotion. the trees have witnessed my growth as a person. i hope that when i come back, although i might have changed by then, this home will still recognize me and accept me.

this is temporary, i know. i have not left yet but i already look forward to being back here again. i hate this... i'm not really good when it comes to farewells.

tuesday night-wednesday morning was really great. i thank my friends. you are more than that to me... you're like my sisters already. you know me, my tears are shallow. but that time, i did everything i can to fight back the tears. i will miss you dearly, nearly as much as i would miss my family.

thank you so much for spending that time with me. i shall say it again - that night is memorable for two reasons. the first is that the event itself was fun - the drinks, the peel, the food, the music, and yes, the people making the music (especially a guitarist named...). the second reason, the more important reason, is that the event was spent with you guys. it would not have been so great if i hadn't spent it with you.

you guys take care and keep in touch, OK?

THUMP!

"oi, ano yun?"

"sorry po, nahulog bag ko..."

(but what i really wanted to say was... "sorry po, nahulog puso ko...")

SH*T, SOMEONE SLAP ME ON THE HEAD... HARD!

shet

Sat, 02 Sep 2006 02:57:50 GMT

i obviously don't know what to do anymore...

goodness, i won't be able to see you anymore... unless i go to your gigs.

two weeks.. that's all the time i have for this craziness...

after such time, i'll have to stop this. i don't have much of a choice, actually.

Sat, 05 Aug 2006 15:15:05 GMT

You Are Indigo

Of all the shades of blue, you are the most funky, unique, and independent.
Expressing yourself and taking a leap of faith has always been easy for you.

What Color Blue Are You?

SHIT... I WANT TO BE F*CKIN RICH! seriously... and soon please...

because i am bored and pissed at the same time...

Sat, 05 Aug 2006 15:07:02 GMT

Your Candy Heart Says "Get Real"

You're a bit of a cynic when it comes to love.
You don't lose your head, and hardly anyone penetrates your heart.

Your ideal Valentine's Day date: is all about the person you're seeing (with no mentions of v-day!)

Your flirting style: honest and even slightly sarcastic

What turns you off: romantic expectations and "greeting card" holidays

Why you're hot: you don't just play hard to get - you are hard to get

What Does Your Candy Heart Say?

Your Observation Skills Get A B

Your senses are pretty sharp (okay, most of the time)
And it takes something big to distract you!

How Observant Are You?

Your Power Color Is Lime Green

At Your Highest:

You are adventurous, witty, and a visionary.

At Your Lowest:

You feel misunderstood, like you don't fit in.

In Love:

You have a tough exterior, but can be very dedicated.

How You're Attractive:

Your self-awareness and confidence lights up a room.

Your Eternal Question:

"What else do I need in my life?"

What's Your Power Color?

lalalalalalalalalalala....

Wed, 19 Jul 2006 12:38:05 GMT

It seems that it's been six weeks since my last entry.

Have i been busy? Not really... I guess I just wan't in the mood to say anything. Actually, I don't have much to say today.

I just thought i should write something down...

I sometimes hate the fact that I was not born into an overflowingly rich family. There would be times when i would think of how convenient it would be for me if I just had tons of money i didn't have to work for.

I still have that dream of being to thank you one day for inspiring me in so many ways. Even if there are other people who also inspire me, you are still the one i treasure most.

I want to be grateful for all the things i have, for the things i do not know i have, and for what is yet to come. I have been graced with a lot of things and i apologize if I keep on asking for more. Please let me realize what my purpose is and what would be best for me. I have come to a point where i think i should just surrender everything to you and just let you guide me...

mind quest

Mon, 05 Jun 2006 15:50:44 GMT

my good old friend lora woke me up to tell me our plane was about to land...

who would have thought that i would go to faraway brazil with a few close friends?!

weird though, because once i got here, i started missing the friends i left behind.

torn...

Thu, 11 May 2006 09:37:48 GMT

after a month, i still have not had any coherent thougts... so my post will still be as incoherent as any entry can be...

i'm pissed that the sale of rhumba frappe is still discontinued. that is my fave cold drink in starbucks! bummer.

one month and seventeen days after i saw you guys, i can still hear the screaming fans, feel the goosebumps, recall the incident i had with the securestars, and see you sing as if i am still watching the concert today. i still curse that immunology book and that immunology exam for standing in the way of my ultimate dream. shit.

you ha... i don't know what's up with you. bigla-bigla ka nalang nambabati, samantalang dati hindi ka nagrereply! ok lang sakin. hahahahaha... wish ko lang di na kita makita kundi hihilingin ko na lamunin na ako ng lupa!

i tried to take a nap this afternoon. i ended up crying because i realized how much i miss some people... eleven of them, to be exact.

still waiting for a reply from mr nava about my application. i want that job, i hope i get it.

you are a biatch. good thing i wasn't there when you said those things or you would have met your match. well, not really, but i've lost my respect for you.

there are things that time can heal and there are those that cannot be erased even if nearly a decade has passed. i've just got to learn how to deal with those things...

hindi ako makapaniwalang naging crush ko kayo! ano ba ang nakita ko sa inyo?!?!?! siguro wala akong salamin nung mga panahong iyon. ganun na ba ako ka-bulag?!?!?!

out of boredom, i was able to finish two tom clancy books: without remorse and rainbow six. i must be really bored.

wo yao gao su ni ni zai hen duo fang mian gu li wo. xie xie ni... xie xie... when will i get the chance?

wazzup ketchup?

Tue, 11 Apr 2006 14:05:11 GMT

random thoughts...

a cup in hand, let's sit and stay for a while...

we have a new baby, but he has no name yet. we're going to get his brother tomorrow... yehey roborovski hamster!

according to my online mandarin lessons, i'm not making any progress...

a week after getting sick, i still have colds and i still cannot eat regularly...

multiply sucks. i can't upload more pictures... but they said i still had hundreds left for this month...

i want a new phone, a laptop, a cute mp3 player, a car and a private jet...

i want to see the Boyzz again but i'm not yet ready to (financially)...

i've been going out of the house nearly everyday but i don't seem to accomplish much...

at times, i am thinking that i missed out on a lot. that in the few days i've been away, a lot of things have changed. i hate this feeling.

i miss you already... when will i see you? five minutes... is that too much to ask? maybe it is...

hehehhehehe, kalokohan ito...

Fri, 07 Apr 2006 14:13:26 GMT

tungkol sa aking pantawid-gutom...

pansamantalang nagunaw ang mundo ko... nang tignan ko ang profile niya sa friendster:

male, in a relationship

bilib rin ako sa iyo, ambilis mo siyang napasagot. pero charming ka naman, di rin ako magtataka. at aba, kaya pala hindi ka na nagtatanong at nagpapatulong sa akin ha!

gamitan lang pala ito... hehhehehehehe, pero lugi ka.

okay, nabuo nang mula ang mundo ko (pansamantala nga lang kasi na nagunaw eh).

pero ang kaluluwa ko, humiwalay na sa katawan ko... kasi naman, apat na pogi at talentadong boys ang nasa desktop ko! (kahit na alam kong nag-grow up na kayong apat, boys parin ang tawag ko sa inyo...)

konti nalang

Wed, 29 Mar 2006 16:52:18 GMT

at matitikman ko na ang sampung oras na tulog...

at matatapos ko na ang karamihan ng aking mga gawain...

at mananamnam ko na ang bunga ng aking mga paghihirap...

at mararanasan ko na ang magkaroon ng sariling pera...

at malilimot ko na ang mga masasamang pangyayari...

at makikita kitang muli... (ipaglalaban ko ang ating pag-ibig... hehe)

at mayayakap ko na ang sinag ng araw...

at mahihimbing sa katahimikan ng gabi...

happy

Mon, 27 Mar 2006 14:12:51 GMT

ang sarap ng pakiramdam...

makita ka...

parang langit...

wahey! wo ai ni zaizai! i hope to see you again... soon...

bwiset...

Mon, 27 Mar 2006 13:04:44 GMT

nakakainis ka na ah...

ilang araw na akong napipika sa iyo pero pinalalampas ko nalang...

kung tutuusin, ilang beses na akong napipila sa iyo... pero pinalalampas ko lang... kahit na pati ako napapahamak...

ayaw mo na ikaw ang humawak nung camera tapos ngayon magrereklamo ka? takte, umiinit ulo ko sayo.

bwiset, di ko na makimkim. bwiset talaga.

Fri, 17 Mar 2006 14:56:17 GMT

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Sweetness:	1 g	2%

Bitterness:	531 mg	48%

Power:	30 g	86%

Healthful:	3 mg	1%

Excitement:	110 mg	10%
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konti nalang

Mon, 06 Mar 2006 01:41:12 GMT

sa wakas, tapos ko na... i think... hehehe

seventeen days nalang, flyola na ako...

natuwa naman ako sa advanced grad gift sa akin... hindi ko ito ine-expect...

sinisipag na ulit ako magtrabaho, lalo at patapos na...

kahit na ayoko pang matapos, excited na rin ako... after all, alam ko namang forever na ang mga bagay-bagay...

weee! malapit na ang concert!!! ang saya, may dala-dala akong Kuby sa HK. GEEKY!!! EEEWWWW!!!

mamayang gabi, sana masimulan ko na ang second to the last thesis requirement ko!

san nanggaling yun?

Thu, 02 Mar 2006 15:44:47 GMT

mga lumalabas sa bibig ko, pero hindi ko alam kung saan nanggaling...

she may be the perfect person, but is she the perfect person for you?

it's like we're on different boats, but we are sailing on the same sea...

weird...

addict

Fri, 24 Feb 2006 10:15:04 GMT

cheeseburger meal
go big time
coffee cappuccino mc jelly

i made a financial report on how much i have spent for F4 during the past two years. i had to add it up three times. i could not believe it. what more for those people who actually have much more money than me?! gooodneeeesss....

check list

Wed, 22 Feb 2006 16:00:53 GMT

DOST bond check!
DOST clearance check!
Foreign Affairs check!
Passport check!
NBI clearance check!
Immigrations check!
Concert Tickets check!
Plane tickets and accommodations
Pocket money
academic stuff (thesis, exams etc)

konti nalang, and all set and ready to go na ako!

eCSperience: Science and Magic with Erik Mana

Wed, 15 Feb 2006 14:07:33 GMT

The College of Science Student Council is sponsoring TWO performances by Erik Mana, a well-known Filipino-Canadian street magician. If you want to watch him LIVE (and see those David Blaine/Mondo Magic tricks for yourself - or even get picked to participate in the tricks!), please send me an email to reserve tickets: patricia.oreta@gmail.com.

Tickets are priced at P150 each, but if you are ordering in bulk (30 and up), we'll give you a VERY big discount! [This is a great fundraising opportunity for you or your org! :)]

Both shows will be held on February 21, Tuesday. The first show is from 4:30-6:00, and the second is from 7:00-8:30.

It'll be really exciting, I promise. I hope to see you there!